"If, however, your feelings have changed, I will have to tell you: you have bewitched me, body and soul, and I love... I love... I love you. I never wish to be parted from you from this day on." -- Mr. Darcy in Pride & Prejudice (2005).
I was thinking to myself....what is it about Mr. Darcy that continually seduces females, generation after generation? I think it is the idea of hope. The hope that love like that exists so honestly in a person. Even if it was just a creation of someone's mind, it still gives those of us hopeless romantics a chance to believe. We can only imagine how amazing it would feel to be loved so ardently by someone so loyal.
In all reality a lot of the cheesy romantic movies leave me feeling empty and like I'm missing a piece of myself. However, Pride & Prejudice is different. I don't leave feeling like I'm missing something, but rather that I have something to look forward in my life. Hope is an amazing feeling to have. It is just beyond what I feel on a normal basis. Though things are starting to turn. I'm hoping my trip to Seattle will make me feel more excited and alive.
2.28.2006
2.25.2006
Roger Williams, Being Single, and life in general...
Hmmm....where to start. I so wish I could write more but when I feel the need to write I never seem to be around a computer or one with enough privacy to write what I want to. Oh well, I guess all of my readers (hahaha) just get deprived.
First, I got an acceptance letter to Roger Williams. I so thought I already had received an acceptance from there but I guess not *oops*. Either way they offered me a Leadership Scholarship. Pretty much they offered to give me half of tuition (the equivalent of about $13,500) and then a $500 stipend for textbooks and other course materials. At first it was a very tempting offer but then I stopped to think. I've read some really awful reviews of the school and their bar passage rate is not good at all. I also don't' think I'd be very happy in Rhode Island. I more applied as a back up school, not as a real consideration.
Being single sucks. I miss having somebody to hug all of the time. Mark has a new girlfriend (per facebook) and that caused lots of issues early on in the week. However, I guess it's about time he moved on since he was the one who wanted to date other people. I've dated but nobody really serious. Oh well. I probably wont' until I'm up in Seattle. I don't' want to fall for somebody and just have to move away from them.
Last night we went to Asylum. I definitely got some interesting attention. There was a guy who spent a large portion of the night trying to dance with me - he looked like a member of the Cure Mike said. Also, there was this guy in a plaid vest, high water pants, and glasses. On his way out he walked up and said hi to me and kissed my neck and walked away with two girls in tow. It was very strange. However, it was nice to have some attention. It made me feel better about myself to a certain extent.
Alright, I need to go make some lunch before I go to work *boo*. Maybe more sometime soon.
First, I got an acceptance letter to Roger Williams. I so thought I already had received an acceptance from there but I guess not *oops*. Either way they offered me a Leadership Scholarship. Pretty much they offered to give me half of tuition (the equivalent of about $13,500) and then a $500 stipend for textbooks and other course materials. At first it was a very tempting offer but then I stopped to think. I've read some really awful reviews of the school and their bar passage rate is not good at all. I also don't' think I'd be very happy in Rhode Island. I more applied as a back up school, not as a real consideration.
Being single sucks. I miss having somebody to hug all of the time. Mark has a new girlfriend (per facebook) and that caused lots of issues early on in the week. However, I guess it's about time he moved on since he was the one who wanted to date other people. I've dated but nobody really serious. Oh well. I probably wont' until I'm up in Seattle. I don't' want to fall for somebody and just have to move away from them.
Last night we went to Asylum. I definitely got some interesting attention. There was a guy who spent a large portion of the night trying to dance with me - he looked like a member of the Cure Mike said. Also, there was this guy in a plaid vest, high water pants, and glasses. On his way out he walked up and said hi to me and kissed my neck and walked away with two girls in tow. It was very strange. However, it was nice to have some attention. It made me feel better about myself to a certain extent.
Alright, I need to go make some lunch before I go to work *boo*. Maybe more sometime soon.
2.22.2006
My inner power...oooh!!
Sensitivity- Your inner power is Sensitivity! You are true to your heart, and probably a hopeless romantic. Everyone loves you for your gentle ways and kind words, and you are brilliant with animals and young children. Youre very sweet and caring, and you have friends who love you, who are always there to support you and hold you when your fragile heart is broken. You are most likely often found daydreaming about your life and your future, and you have a talent for dealing with kids, all of which adore you, even if youve only been around them for five minutes. Youre the one your friends turn to when they need a shoulder to cry on, and a
kind word to get them smiling again. You are shy, lovable, compassionate, and seek to make
the world a better place. You will go far in life for sure. You go girl!
Boy/Girl who will sweep you off your feet: The romantic, sweet guy/girl that every girl
dreams of at some stage in their life. You just love the way he/she treats you as you are the most precious, important girl in the world, and the way you know hell/shell never cheat on you.
Your stone/jewel: Calcite
Your power: Love. You can make the most revengeful person mellow, and have a talent
for being a brilliant match maker.
Your element: Earth
A quote that applies to you: "When you step to the ledge of all the light you have left, and you take that first step into the darkness of the unknown, you might believe one of two things will happen. There will be something solid for you step upon, or you will learn how to fly."
What's your inner power? (Girls only sorry. Beautiful anime pictures, lengthy results)
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2.07.2006
Life Lesson
One of the most important things I've learned in college, no really in life, is that the best thing you can do is to leave an imprint in someone's life. It's not when you're trying to make a difference or when you're attempting to make yourself heard that matters the most. It's the small things. It's the days when you're being nothing but yourself and something you do leaves a mark on someone's heart. Most of the time you probably don't even realize it, but those are the things that truly matter. We all know the people who impact on a daily basis - that our lives affect. Our parents, our friends, our roommates. Those are the simple ones. However, when you make a difference in someone's life by not even trying it's the best. A simple smile, an acknowledgement of that person, or just a small gesture. Those are the things that we do everyday without realizing the things it can change in someone's life.
I don't know how more to explain it. I'm sure everyone has had one of those days where nothing seems to be going right, where the world seems like it's out to get you. Then something small happens. A stranger smiles, someone holds a door, someone lets you out of a driveway in traffic, the unexpected. It's the unexpected because it's not what you were looking for that day - it probably was the last thing. However, I know when those days happen to me and the kindness of strangers shows, I realize I'll be okay. It's not about the big things. Everyone remembers the big events that people try for, but it's the unexpected and frequently small catalysts that really make the difference.
It's the people in life who walk around with the smiles on their faces that can change the world. It may never make the news or be in the papers. When you walk around with a smile it's this unifying thing. People smile back. Usually they don't even realize it. It's the people who have smiled at me that make me know things are okay still, even when I feel my worst. So at the end of the day even though I might feel awful inside, I put on a smile. Not because I'm trying to hide anything but because once you start to smile, it's hard to stop.
I don't know what my random rant was really about. It just reminds me as I'm getting ready to graduate and move on in life, it's a good time to tell a lot of people that they mean a lot to me. Even though a lot of the friend's I've made I probably won't talk to in another 5 years, that's alright. The point is they were my friend. They made an impact in my life and I will always remember them. I can't ask for anything more in life. Just to keep moving on and making memories, its' the one thing people really can't take from me. Sometimes they are things I want to share, and other times they're private. All that matters though is that I keep making them. No matter where I end up in a few months, the past 4 years of my life will always be a big part of my life. I know more great things are to come but I think of the simple nights of just eating at a restaurant with a group of friends or doing something silly that nobody else would understand why it was so fun because they weren't there, and I don't know how anything could top some of those memories. Even the nights that were spent shedding tears over one thing or another make me smile in retrospect. Some of those things still hurt, but I smile at the fact that they don't hurt quite as bad because there was always somebody who made the tears stop. Even if it was just that stranger that smiled at me on the sidewalk for no other reason than I existed.
I don't know how more to explain it. I'm sure everyone has had one of those days where nothing seems to be going right, where the world seems like it's out to get you. Then something small happens. A stranger smiles, someone holds a door, someone lets you out of a driveway in traffic, the unexpected. It's the unexpected because it's not what you were looking for that day - it probably was the last thing. However, I know when those days happen to me and the kindness of strangers shows, I realize I'll be okay. It's not about the big things. Everyone remembers the big events that people try for, but it's the unexpected and frequently small catalysts that really make the difference.
It's the people in life who walk around with the smiles on their faces that can change the world. It may never make the news or be in the papers. When you walk around with a smile it's this unifying thing. People smile back. Usually they don't even realize it. It's the people who have smiled at me that make me know things are okay still, even when I feel my worst. So at the end of the day even though I might feel awful inside, I put on a smile. Not because I'm trying to hide anything but because once you start to smile, it's hard to stop.
I don't know what my random rant was really about. It just reminds me as I'm getting ready to graduate and move on in life, it's a good time to tell a lot of people that they mean a lot to me. Even though a lot of the friend's I've made I probably won't talk to in another 5 years, that's alright. The point is they were my friend. They made an impact in my life and I will always remember them. I can't ask for anything more in life. Just to keep moving on and making memories, its' the one thing people really can't take from me. Sometimes they are things I want to share, and other times they're private. All that matters though is that I keep making them. No matter where I end up in a few months, the past 4 years of my life will always be a big part of my life. I know more great things are to come but I think of the simple nights of just eating at a restaurant with a group of friends or doing something silly that nobody else would understand why it was so fun because they weren't there, and I don't know how anything could top some of those memories. Even the nights that were spent shedding tears over one thing or another make me smile in retrospect. Some of those things still hurt, but I smile at the fact that they don't hurt quite as bad because there was always somebody who made the tears stop. Even if it was just that stranger that smiled at me on the sidewalk for no other reason than I existed.
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