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I am Ali.

What more could you ever want to know?

Let me try to answer all your questions.

I'm a super busy student that occasionally finds time to sleep.

I like to read as long as it's not textbooks.

I want to go to law school some day and that dream is quickly coming true.

If I wasn’t doing that I’d get a master’s in Higher Education.

I'm a dreamer and an optimist.

I love coffee and studying at coffee houses.

I love meeting the new, interesting people at coffee houses.

I make friends wherever I go with strangers.

I like to procrastinate and do it more than I should.

I now live with one of my best friends that I've known since 5th grade.

I'm a red head and so is my roommate.

I like to ramble (as you can see).

You've probably already stopped reading this but it's okay.

I'm learning to love cooking.

I love to drive during the summer with my windows down.

I just like driving with my windows down.

Sometimes when I'm feeling sad or lonely or just bleh I go for a drive because it makes me happy.

I miss the days of going for drives with Andrea in HS and looking for rain.

I'm lost without my cell phone.

I love to sing even though I am terrible at it.

Even more, I love to dance (I'm bad at that too).

The simple things in life make me smile and I'm learning to appreciate that more.

I love chocolate (maybe that's why I work in a chocolate store).

I was born in NJ and moved to Phoenix when I was 10.

I’m almost done with my undergrad work in Tucson.

I don’t know where I want to spend the rest of my life anymore.

I'm totally terrified of going away to law school alone and being in a town where I don't know a soul.

I'm also excited about getting to move to a new town and making new friends and seeing new things.

I want to get a passport even though I have nowhere to go.

I love being in college but I'm not digging classes anymore.

I'm tired of going through silly motions just to get a piece of paper that says I'm smarter than I was 4 years ago.

Most of what I've learned really hasn't been sitting in a classroom. I

love meeting new people and trying new things even though sometimes I'm not as willing as I should be.

I love my friends to death and I'm sad that we will all be in different places next year.

It scares me that so many of my friends are married or having kids or living with someone.

It's okay though because I know I don't want that yet.

I could go on with this forever.

I like to lay on the floor and stare at the ceiling - there's something relaxing about it.

I don’t like people sitting on my bed unless it's made.

The curtains in my bedroom are really shower curtains.

My toenails are almost always painted pink.

I love wearing skirts but my legs are really white but I just don't care anymore.

When I was little my dream was to one day create a way to get rid of my freckles.

I miss my family back east.

I have 22 second cousins in just one branch of the family.

I'm an only child though.

I love to laugh and smile.

If you can make me laugh I'll pretty much automatically be your friend.

I like to think I'm funny but I frequently make really bad jokes.

I hate fancy food – I prefer a burger and some beer much more.

I like going to bars but hate the smell.

I prefer to stay out way later than I should.

Board games are the best things in the world.

I love cheesy girl movies but then again I love Die Hard and the like also.

I think I need to learn to love fish.

I love sticky notes.

I like to make lists.

I think that will be all the rambling for now.

If you want more (I'm not sure what you could want to know), just ask :)

I wish

I wish we had met sooner.
I wish we had more time to get to know each other.
I wish you didn't have to go back so soon.
I wish we weren't just a fling.
I wish I knew you'd be happy where you are.
I wish I'd know when you returned home safe.
I wish for what I could have never had.

My Secret about PostSecret

Every Sunday night I look forwarding to reading Post Secret. I don't know what it is about the site but it's the one thing that I never forget to do on Sundays. Either way almost every time I read the site I cry a little. Sometimes because the stories of hope make me happy, other times it makes me so sad to know that someone out there has such a painful secret, and other times because the card I'm reading could be mine. When I think about it, there are so many secrets I could share on a postcard, but I'm blessed enough to have friends that I know I can share anything with. Though not all of my friends know each secret, it's good knowing that somebody knows what you feel.

<3

So many things.

First, Seattle was amazing. I didn't want to even get on the plane to come home. Given I had to but I sure didn't want to. I think I will be so happy there next year. I know at first I'll be sad and lonely but once I get a routine and into the swing of things I don't think I'll ever want to leave. I'll miss all my friends and family but I'm beginning to realize it might be the best place for me.

Second, I want to quit my job, quit school, and quit leaving the house. I think I just need a week or two where all I have to do is switch movies out at Blockbuster and lay around and read books. Very quickly I'm getting tired of everything. Senioritis is a complete bitch. After this minute procrastination of blogging I have to go do homework - at 9 PM on a Friday night - awesome.

Third, I met a guy that I hung out with but he left this morning to go back to his post in the Marines. I really enjoyed getting to hang out with him and just having a good time. We didn't' really exchange info or anything so I'm pretty confident I'll never see or hear from him again. The point of it was that the time I spent with him was me smiling most of the time. Sadly, I don't remember being that happy in recent times. I also felt comfortable with a guy which really hasn't happened since Mark. It kind of sucks that I'll never see him again, if he lived in Tucson I would have liked to get to know him better, but it gives me hope. Hope that somebody is out there for me.

Lastly, since both Judy & Terry are leaving Blue Chip I've been asked to sit on the Recruitment Committee. It's actually pretty neat - I'm either the only or one of two students that will represent the entire program when hiring. I feel very honored and hope to make the best selection I can. I've never really had to hire people or do interviews so I'll do the best I can and just hope that they fit in well with Blue Chip.

100 Things You Never Needed to Know About Me

100 THINGS

1: First grade teacher's name: Grrr...I normally can think of this.

2. Last word you said: Will - I was singing along to Teddy Geiger

3: Last song you sang: Whatever that song is called

4: Last person you hugged: Sabrina when I saw her at work

5: Last thing you laughed at?: 'Just Friends' that I watched earlier

6: Last time you said I don't remember: Uhm....who knows :p

7: Last time you cried? Actually cried was last month.....teared up more recently

8: Are you currently wearing a shirt from Minnesota: Nope - a Union Bay sweatshirt that my grandfather gave me.

::PRESENT::

9: What color socks are you wearing: black - I wore a black turtleneck today

10: What's under your bed: Boxes of stuff and probably some junk I've forgotten about

11: What time did you wake up today: ohhhh like 11:30 maybe?? I don't know - whenever the phone rang

12: Current taste: I'm drinking hot cocoa

13: Current hair: Red and long

14: Current thirst: None - see #12

15: Current annoyance: that I have to clean my room after I get to #100 and the Sex and the City that's on was on like last week

16: Current longing: to be in Seattle

17: Current desktop background: My grandfather making a funny face....it changes hourly

18: Current worry: Too many to name

19: Current hate: uhm? That I'm still in Tucson and not out on a Saturday night during Spring Break

20: Current favorite article of clothing: Ever? I don't know.

21: Favorite physical feature of the preferred sex: Eyes

22: Last CD that you listened to: The 92.9 Studio C CD

23: Favorite place to be: The Jersey shore

24: Least favorite place: quickly becoming Tucson

25: Time you wake up in the morning? normally between 7:30 & 9 depending on what I'm doing

26: If you could play an instrument: I can still kind of play the flute. I've always wanted to play the piano or violin though.

27: Favorite color: purple

28: Do you believe in an afterlife: yes in some form

29: How tall are you: 5'4"

30: Current favorite word/saying: echelons

31: Favorite book: well right now I read nothing but textbooks...I love Nicholas Sparks, Roald Dahl, ugh....I don't know....stop asking difficult questions

32: Favorite season: where I am currently it's the fall

33: One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to: ohhh so difficult...I pass

::FUTURE::

35: Where do you want to go for college? I'm graduating in May from UA for undergrad. I would love to go to William & Mary for law school or Seattle.

36: What is your career going to be like: Intellectual property lawyer specializing in internet issues - hahaa I want to work for Google or Microsoft.

37: How many kids do you want: One or two

38: Where do you want to live? I don't know....Seattle?

::HAVE YOU EVER...::

39: Said "I love you": Yes .

40: Gotten in a fight with your dog/cat/bird/fish: Well my cat has been angry at me

41: Been to New York: Yup...not in a long time though

42: Been to Florida: Yup...last time I was there was last summer

43: Been to California: A few times but not since Senior year of high school

44: Been to Hawaii: Negative

45: Been to Mexico: Negative

46: Been to China: I've never been out of the country, alright?

47: Been to Alaska?: I want to go and see my friend and her husband

48: Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: Not necessarily the next day but soon thereafter

Where the heck is the next 3 questions??

52: Do you have a crush on someone: *sigh* Yes. A few. Such as the hot bartender at the Shanty. If you happen to read this, uhm yeah :p

53: What book are you reading now? Sadly here is the list: Strategies of Containment (about the Cold War), The Hollow Hope (about the USSC and social change), Prophets of the Hood (about lyrics and poetry in hip hop). There's a few others but those are the main ones right now.

54: Worst feeling in the world: crying and having nobody to hug

55: What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning: I don't want to go to school/work

56: How many rings before you answer: normally like 2

57: Would you like the chicken or beef: Chicken

where is number 58?

59: Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: *sigh* Yes.

where is 60-63??

64: Do you do drugs: no

65: Do you drink: Yup

66: Is anyone still reading this: Probably not

67: What kind of Shampoo and Conditioner do you use? Depends on my mood when I go shopping

68: What are you most scared of: Making the wrong choice about law school (currently)....or wax figures

69: What clothes do you sleep in? depends on the weather

70: Who is the last person that called you: My mom

71:Where do you want to get married: I don't know...I'll figure that out when I have a ring on my finger

72: If you could change anything about yourself what would that be: Physically....I'd like to be more fit or my knees....in general...to be more confident

73. Who do you hate: Not a lot of a people...the bad drivers in Tucson??

74: Been In Love: Yes and had the heart broken

75: Are you timely or always late: always early...usually about 10-15 minutes

76: Do you have a job: yes I am a chocolatier

77: Do you like being around people? Usually

78: Best feeling in the world: Somebody complimenting you and truly meaning it

79: Are you for world peace: Of course though it's not realistic

80: Are you a health freak: I should become one

81: Do you have a "Type" of person you always go after: Somewhat but I tend to wander

82: Do you want someone you don't have?: *LOL*

83: Are you lonely right now: Not particularly

84: Ever afraid you'll never get married: Sometimes

85: Do you want to get married: I think so

86: Do you want kids? Yes

::IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU...::

87: Cried: No

88: Bought Something: Too much :( Being alone a rainy Saturday causes for too much money getting spent

89: Gotten Sick: Nope

90: Sang: Yessir

91: Said I Love you: Yup to my mom and Jamie (in the sisterly way)

92: Wanted To Tell Someone You Liked them: Yeah...at the bar :)

93: Met Someone: I don't think so

94: Moved On: Not really, what do I have to move on from?

95: Talked To Someone: Yup

96: Had A Serious Talk: Negative

97: Missed Someone: Of course

98: Hugged Someone: Nope

99: Yelled at Someone: Well not to their face...I yelled while driving at the idiots who think rain requires them to go 15 MPH

100. Someone You Can't Be with out: In the last 48 hours? I don't know :)

Randomness at 12:35

First, I got invited to join Phi Beta Kappa. I know it's an awesome honor but everybody in the family has made a bigger deal out of this than anything I can remember. You know it seems like getting into law school was nothing compared to this :P

Second, I love Coffee Xchange. It's like my home sometimes. I feel comfortable and safe. Today there was an amazingly cute guy there. Brightest blue eyes I've ever seen. Too bad I have no guts and just smiled at him occasionally rather than approaching him. I looked like poo though so yeah. Also, Fred (a.k.a Santa) always makes me smile. I love that he distracts me and chats with me about random things.

Third, I cannot wait for spring break. I'm not really prepared for my midterm tomorrow (probably a bad idea because I think it's worth like 30% of my overall grade). However, Jamie and I are going to the zoo and we will have fun. Seattle just cannot come soon enough. My mind checked out on Tuesday night.

Fourth, I'm angry that Chloe won Project Runway. I think Santino totally deserved it. I loved his dresses. He can design for me anyday.

Fifth, I've gotten the blue screen of death from my computer twice now. Let's hope it makes it until May. :/

Confessions...

...of a somewhat normal person. (not a princess or drama queen because I'm neither).

* I tried to do this last night and my computer gave me a blue screen :(
* I love to sit around in my towels after a shower.
* I really love to dance even though I'm not so awesome at it.
* I'm terrified of graduating in May - the rest of my life hasn't been planned out since I was 4.
* I can't wait to go to Seattle next week.
* I may have made my decision on law schools based on a 48 trip to a city I had never seen.
* It might end up being the best decision I ever made.
* It might end up being the worst decision I ever made.
* I'm grumpy about living in Phoenix this summer.
* I feel like I'm going to have no friends.
* I worry that I'll want to stay in Phoenix and not move because I love everyone in AZ.
* I wish I lived near a beach. Watching water calms me.
* I love the feeling of sand between my toes but hate when it sticks to your skin.
* I use humor to cover up all the other emotions.
* I love to laugh and think the bad things in life should just be laughed at.
* I love cheesy chick flicks and sometimes watch them as a good excuse to cry.
* I think everyone should cry sometimes - it's good for the soul.
* I'm a hopeless romantic deep down inside.
* I worry that I'll never find that perfect person that completes me.
* I worry that I already did and lost them without knowing it.
* I love my iPod and don't care how trendy it is - it's quite useful.
* I have to use compact toothbrush heads because I have such a small mouth.
* I have tiny teeth and big gums and am very insecure about it.
* I have huge ears that are super flexible (they don't have a lot of cartiledge).
* I want to drive a silver Toyota 4Runner someday.
* I love my little sports car and love to go faster than I should.
* I think the best part about being single is I don't have to shave my legs everyday.
* I still usually do though because I like how they feel when they're smooth.
* I'm super pale and that will never change but I really want to try tanning cream.
* I think Phoenix has better fast food than Tucson ever will.
* I love onions and eat them all the time. I eat garlic lots too.
* I like to drink tequila but only do when I want to be super drunk.
* I can now walk in high heels. I feel sexier when I do.
* I miss doing gymnastics and wish I never quit.
* I don't know anything but going to school and having crappy part-time retail jobs.
* I fear what life will be like.
* In 3 years I'll be over $100,000 in debt.
* I don't stress out anymore. I think it might be because I just have stopped feeling some stuff.
* I worry that I won't make any friends in Seattle.
* I want to be in Seattle now.
* I want to learn how to sail and scuba dive.
* If I could do anything on a day off, I'd read at a coffee shop or the beach.
* I want to find somebody to wake up with on Sundays and go to a coffee shop and just read for a while.
* I know what I want to do with the rest of my life - but it changes every week.
* I wish I had majored in something different - maybe accounting or classics or English.
* I wish I had taken more sign language classes and could interpret.
* I think the thing I'll miss most from UA is Blue Chip (besides my friend).
* I believe the bartender at the Shanty is a cutie, but I don't think I'm pretty enough to talk to
him.
* I am truthfully quite insecure and just don't show it. I overcompensate with a bit of an ego.
* I have gained 20 pounds since I started college and want to lose it.
* I want to lose the weight for myself and also because I miss being the "hot, skinny girl"
* I wear an apron at work because I think it covers up how I feel (which is usually ugly).
* I want to go to the zoo and forget about all of my homework and midterms.
* I make lists compulsively, usually just to waste time.
* I make lists that are sometimes super important though.
* I love sticky notes.
* I am anal-retentive and overly organized but somehow I'm still a little messy.
* I really want to drive across the country.
* I think I sometimes missed out on something because I've never been to Europe.
* I want to go on a vacation with somebody I'm falling in love with.
* I miss the feeling of the butterflies when you see somebody you love.
* I miss catching lightning bugs at night in the summers in Jersey.
* I wish for the Jersey shore all of the time.
* I don't think the CDs of oceans sounds ever sound very real.
* I don't want to go do my notecards but that's what I have to do.

Procrastinating with Quizzes

Global Personality Test Results

Stability (46%) medium which suggests you average somewhere in between being calm and resilient and being anxious and reactive. Orderliness (80%) high which suggests you are overly organized, reliable, neat, and hard working at the expense too often of flexibility, efficiency, spontaneity, and fun. Extraversion (63%) moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity.

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Brain Lateralization Test Results

Right Brain (24%) The right hemisphere is the visual, figurative, artistic, and intuitive side of the brain. Left Brain (68%) The left hemisphere is the logical, articulate, assertive, and practical side of the brain

Are You Right or Left Brained?
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ESFJ - "Seller". Most sociable of all types. Nurturer of harmony. Outstanding host or hostesses. 12.3% of total population.

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